spitless

This chemo stuff has some amusing and frequently annoying side effects. I am spitless for example. I have no saliva and the result is that eating food, that often looks really tasty, is like chewing chalk. I go through a bunch of water just to finish a meal.

But I am generally so minimally affected that sometimes I forget anything is wrong. Under the observance of a doctor this is not a problem since I have regular fix it sessions to go to. Before the cancer was recognized, however, it had time to run amok in my body causing serious problems.

Had I been aware of what to look for, the tracks of its having been there, I might have taken corrective action much sooner. The prognosis would be less grim. The problem, of course, is that it all happened so slowly. If, for example I was meandering about the house and my arm just fell off, I would very likely call someone for help. But if instead a eight inch blob of tissue inside my body suddenly becomes an eight inch blob of cancer I very likely wouldn't notice. The long term consequences to me would be similar a major medical problem.

Cancer is like that. It does what it does and suddenly your about to die. Most of the time you've thought nothing was wrong or worse yet you just got used to the pain and called it normal.

Sin is like that too. We do what we do and suddenly our souls are effectively dead. Most of the time we think nothing is really wrong with that lifestyle or worse we just get used to the pain in our soul and call it normal.

Sin is the bigger problem. Sin will affect us all our lives; cancer only till we die. Faulty lifestyles may continue to afflict us, to control us, after we die in the second part of life.

If thinking about these things makes you scared spitless but everything else seems just fine you need to beware, take some time for solitude, time to do a self examination, time to visit the one who can heal us body and soul.